Hey there again, just dropping a journal off, why not, got nothing else to do, I can't get past my level on my game because I fail right now due to lack of concentration, can't sleep, excited that I am ordering my new Airsoft stuff tomorrow, I am getting:-

STAR AW-338 with Flow control system, high flow valves, accuracy international inner barrel, spare mag strips and some other tweaks.

Also a Madbul Chrono Ver 1., about 6000 BB's, 3 cans of gas and a sling

Woot, well I think that it's exciting, I thought I would spend my cash on Airsoft gear seeing that my photography has just died right now, nothings happening, I am again on the verge of giving up...

I guess I don't know what's happend, I need some kind of enthusiasm around myself again, I need people that actually give a crap about taking photo's to talk to me, invite me to places (Yes I know anyone could invite me places but obviously it would have to be local).

I try to find new and creative photo ideas, I used to take my camera around with me everyday, now my 400D is sat on a bookshelf collecting dust and my 40D is still sealed in my lowepro bag, my studio kit has been stowed away, my tripod is somewhere along with my memory cards.

So yeah, anyone got any competitions? any ideas? Again I appreciate anyone's help but the advice "Just keep trying" really wont help.

Its the same with Warhammer, people are basically going to start slowing down with the hobby because of the new PC MMORPG Warhammer Online, I give it 6 months tops, there is no way they will swing people from there already pathetic 'WOW' pits, what's the point in spending all of your social life on a game that you will just give up on after a while to start again afresh, poor and "L337" item or weapon-less when you pick up the next version of the game.

I am getting there on my Warhammer 40,000 army, I just started my kasarkin, they shouldn't take me that long now, I just have to paint the armour then do the detail work, the new washes are amazing, if you partake in Warhammer based hobby craft and don't own the washes, pull your finger out.

So yeah, back to photography, I'm trying, I really am, but I just don't see the pull right now, I don't have that "Pizazz" that I had a few month's back, I just want to feel that "Need" to want to take photo's of items, people, places.

I mean pretty much everyone now has access to a DSLR, which unfortunately for photographers, is simply a problem more than a solution, its great for companies that sell the products, the companies that make them too, but what about the "Professional" users, that need 'Clients', people that don't actually have the ability to use a camera to a degree of excellence.

Any god damn person lately with some low ass scale camera such as:-
Nikon D40 - D60
Canon 350-450D or 1000D (Waste of time that 1000D, trust me)
Sony Alpha 100-300

or any other low end of the scale camera market can pick them up and use them in "Auto" and then you think your a "Pro", you are simply not, I mean bloody hell, the amount of people that I see that simply don't understand technology in today's world, how can you simply live? I know you could just say "We never used to have to rely on Computers or Technology", no that's because you where chasing hoops down the road with sticks or dancing in a 60's rainbow club sporting golden car insignia, but its a fact of life, tell me honestly, if you think you could go a day without using any form of electronic equipment (Besides the computer to reply), no really, don't reply to this journal until you have if your willing to take up the challenge, state what you have used technology wise through the day.

I don't claim to be a professional about anything any more, possibly even not an expert, I would like to think of myself as a very "Adept" person of Technology and life skills, yes I f**k up, but don't we all?

Just like to quote a genius, Steven Fry...

"People sometimes accuse me of knowing a lot, 'you know alot' they say. This is like saying a person whom has a few grains of sand clinging to him that he owns much sand, when you consider the vast amount of sand there is in the world such a person is, to all intents and purposes, sandless. We are all sandless, we are all ignorant. There are beaches and deserts and dunes of knowledge whose existence we have never guessed at, let alone visited"

Pretty much sums it up, the man is a legend, you might think your brilliant or a god at something but there will always be much more than you ever thought out there to learn, don't stop trying to learn, just because you know how to drive, doesnt mean you know how to fly? Just because you can walk, doesnt mean you know how to climb a mountain? Go open wikipedia or watch a television documentary, keep on learning, keep on thinking, people just don't let yourself stop.

Seriously, keep learning, keep trying to get out there and explore, don't be stuck with the same old crap day in, day out, change your way of thinking, have some fun, f**king throw yourself out of a plane? I hate heights like that but I'm going to do it one day, I just simply want to be able to shout out at the top of my voice "I DID IT, I FEEL LIKE THE KING OF THE WORLD!!"

Peoples professions keep you in specific places, but it never stops people from keeping their individual traits, every the most serious of people might like something 'normal', something me and you might do everyday.

Ride a roller coaster, do something everyday to learn something new, buy a fact book or find a website and read one a day, buy a calender and plan fun and exciting things, aim for a goal and achieve it, don't just give up 15 days down the road, I might be hosting a challenge at the start of 2009 to see if people can take a photo of something to do with their day everyday for a whole year, like signing up for a "yourname365" account or something like that, I might.

Has anyone here ever heard of "Wherethehellismatt.com" the guy that dances all around the world because he felt like it? I want to be that guy, not just because he gets paid to travel, because he just doesn't give a crap what people think about his lame ass way to express himself, some people tag buildings, some people paint masterpieces, I wonder what I'll do in this life...

Well I guess I should go to bed, its pretty late and I have to get up for work at 7am, I guess I'll talk to you later guys.

Shinotama

Unfortunately nothing massively special seems to have happened recently regarding my photography, I mean I have the random idea here and there then nothing...

My main focus is now on Airsoft right now, I mean I really have to get some new photos of my gear done, the only problem is that it seems no-one else knows how to use my camera correctly, that plus I cant even use the space I normally do because home improvements that seem to be taking longer than building a new house -_-

So yes, I'm currently trying to not even spend a penny more than I can help, hell I've even made a Excel file to calculate my spending / savings to see if I can reach my target of £600.

I'm saving up for a STAR AW-338 Sniper rifle (Airsoft) with a International Accuracy barrel, High Flow Valve, Power Control System, Spare Mags and a shed load of Gas, oh yeah, also a *Free* Bag lol.

At the rate I'm going right now, with saving all of the pennies, I should have it by the end of October






Anyways, Have fun

Shinotama

Unfortunately due to a conflict of interests I have been unable to perform any photographic publications for deviantART in a while, this 'Hopefully' shall be turning around relatively soon what with my "Holiday" which is coming up in august with my partner *Pandora123.

I have however been working on and have finished (For now) a 21 image gallery on my website, using the wonderful power of Javascript, .php and FTP I have uploaded and installed a very ingenious piece of scripting that allows you to view my images in a easy, quick and carefully thought out way, click the link to check it out : [link]

I have been working so hard on this website, I know many of you could have thrown one together that has much more class or expertise than that of which I have birthed from my own imagination but hey there you go, I love it =3 Its an ongoing project to keep myself busy, I don't think I'd survive not being able to make or do things, I just need to keep going or I just fall asleep lol.

Anyway, as stated in my previous Journal encase you didn't read it, don't worry your probably not the only one that didn't, I am still looking for Models for a free photo shoot to restart my portfolio with my latest equipment and persona.

I am willing to offer a CD of any images shot in the photo shoot for the client / model. The only requirements are that you are:-

~ Acceptable of the fact that your images will be publicly displayed on Deviant Art and my own website (A model release form will be needed to be signed)
~ Agreeable of the fact that your images may potentially be sold as prints via this account.
~ Retaining the ability to smile and are happy to work with me

I have just purchased a Interfit 756 Background set and am waiting on my next order to arive, a 3.16 x 5m Master's Muslin background material in pure white, its gonna be hhhuuuuggggeee so yes I'd like to be able to use it well to its worth.

Something else I am looking for is any people that wish to be in my links pages as affiliates etc and are up for a link swap.

Please feel free to contact myself via the below address for further information or general enquirys please submit a question request form on my website, here : [link]

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Email:- Admin@shinotama.co.uk

Laters..

Shinotama